Get a Crush, Divert a Crisis

I haven’t felt like this in a while. That googly-eyed, can’t-think-of-anything-else feeling that comes when you’re totally crushing.

I usually hate it. I hate feeling so girly and totally unable to divert my attention to what really matters (aka real life). Usually I try to make myself think of something, anything, so I don’t put the proverbial cart before the relationship horse.

I mean we just made out right?

This week should be one of the most stressful weeks. I just got back from my sisters wedding, I’m moving Saturday, I’m putting down almost $2,000 to move, I’m about to quit my job and find a new one and I have $16.14 in my bank account.

AND I AM TOTALLY FINE.

If that list of need-to’s and don’ts haves strikes a little fear in your heart, join the club. On any other week (say two weeks ago) I would be totally losing it. Actually, I did lose it. And it wasn’t pretty.

But here I am, a few days from moving in with total strangers and living in fear of getting fired from my temp job because I am apparently an inadequate receptionist (thanks, college!) and I am totally cool because I have a crush. I’m just letting my mind run with it because a little diversion from this thing called life is a welcome change. Granted, the stress is manifesting itself in other ways but whatever, I like a boy. Life is awesome.

Even if things never progress past those hot-as-hell three days of making out like seventh graders, I will at least be able to say that something good came of it all, even if a relationship didn’t: my sanity.