Comments on: Side Effects of a Chubby Childhood

By: Jamie

Jamie — Wed, 02 Dec 2009 17:19:37 +0000

This sounds so much like me.

Although I was in "pretty" shape by freshman yr of highschool, I've recently gained about 10 pounds that make a huge difference, at least to me.

And although my friends say I'm pretty…. yeah, like you, I will always be "the fat kid" in my head.

By: I wanna Be Unknown

I wanna Be Unknown — Fri, 05 Jun 2009 17:13:45 +0000

Just thought you should know someone is copy & pasting and claiming your posts

http://mswalkersrandoms.blogspot.com/2009/06/side…

By: nicole

nicole — Wed, 21 Jan 2009 18:15:22 +0000

i cannot believe that through a google search i found everything i wanted to hear in a couple paragraphs..it's seriously insane to know i'm not crazy..i went from being 145 in 5th grade to 210 as a junior in highschool..after highschool i started losing the weight with a personal trainer and now am down to 140 which sounds huge still but for some reason is pretty thin on me? maybe it's all my big bones and muscle from the gym (im 5'6 by the way) i now live the life i always thought i wished for..i get off on people complimenting me and they attention, at the same time it is addictive..if i dont recieve as much attention one night as i did the night before i go into depression and feel huge and fat and decide it must be that im gaining weight again or people think im fat..most of the people that know me now do not even know my 'fat past' and think i ask them constantly if i look ok in this outfit or that outfit because im crazy and was compliments..the truth is i dont trust my own opinion..i feel like im huge in everything i wear..i feel like i will never be happy with myself..i constantly change new diet after new diet, vegan, to vegitarian, to using a juicer..i eat the wierdest shit ever and try everything..and every once in awhile food becomes my comfort food and i am happy for that one night or day eating what i want and then after suffer the guilt and fattyness while im laying in bed thinking about how 'he'll' notice ive gained weight and he wont want me anymore..i cant even explain to you how happy my life used to be fat..i mean yeah i was made fun of sometimes and yes i dealt with shit but nothing close to what i go through everyday as a 'pretty person'..back then i figured why try..now im obsessed with trying to be perfect in every way..you really have no idea..anyways sorry about this rant..it feels good to talk about because i hide behind this wall and really dont discuss or even recall my old life

By: Jake

Jake — Fri, 19 Sep 2008 01:38:45 +0000

First of all, this is damm good article. There are so many points and observations that all of us former chubsters can relate to. I was 'fat' from primary school up until about yr 11 (age 16). The effects of this were two fold, my self esteem took a real beating, for a long long time I had a terrible opinion of myself. My confidence was therefore shot to shit when I was around people I did not know very well. Becuase of this, I was somewhat forced to work on other, more inward elements of myself. As a result, I became quite empathetic, friendly, and, apparently, quite funny. I do however bear some stretch marks on my back from rapid growth + weight loss. I know now that my weight doesn't affect me, because when I hear someone say "that fat dude", I no longer think of it being myself.

I just wish I could go back to myself, and, as creepy as it is, other people who posted on here, all those years ago and explain that some extra weight is nothing to beat yourself up about, just like my mum always tried to.

By: Brendan

Brendan — Sat, 06 Sep 2008 11:56:10 +0000

I can relate as well. I'm a male but I can basically echo the same story

By: christine

christine — Fri, 05 Sep 2008 14:46:25 +0000

These comments really hit home for me as well. I actually had a pituitary tumor and gained a massive amount of weight through junior high- college. It was finally removed, and I dropped a lot of weight by eating healthy and working out- which I used to try to do and it would never work so I usually gave up and porked out. I suffered miserably for my weight and still do. It doesn't matter how many times I am told I am beautiful or get hit on, I think it's completely a joke. I wish that I could have the memories erased you know like in Men In Black, but they haunt me all the time. It's sad that such a "small" aspect of a human being is used to form a caste system. I feel like I will always have a complex to some extent but I am really trying to heal, accept what is done, and move forward and appreciate myself in the present. It's hard though, so very hard…

By: holly

holly — Wed, 03 Sep 2008 13:49:30 +0000

Oh, i read my comment above and realized that i made it sound like everyone had bad acne, no, it was just me.

By: holly

holly — Wed, 03 Sep 2008 13:47:50 +0000

Ha! I had really big, big teeth for my face when I was around, 9 to 12 years old, and, well I was just a funny looking kid and even though I've grown into my looks now (I'm not beautiful but I don't look like a cartoonn character either), I still look at my reflection in the window and cringe. It's like, once I've crossed one obstacle another one approaches me, in junior high, I stayed the same height while everyone shot up and got really bad acne Interesting article, I appreciate my non-conventional beauty then and now, it made me who I am today.

By: Emily

Emily — Tue, 02 Sep 2008 14:15:34 +0000

Wow, this is exactly how I feel right now. I started gaining weight rapidly when I was about 10 and I didn't lose it untill I was about 15.

It might have been a short few years compared to what other people have been through but it effected me in a major way.

I still feel like the fat girl, even though I'm not. Even when I see people who are bigger than me and I KNOW they're bigger than me, I somehow still feel insecure standing next to them thinking of how bad I look.

At one point I lost my social life and I never got it back. Right now I'm pretty much friendless. I have friends I hang out with at school but they all have their own seperate groups outside of school and it's hard to just…slip in to someone elses group, especially when I still don't have the confidence I should have.

By: Belle

Belle — Fri, 29 Aug 2008 02:42:45 +0000

I think that growing up as a fat kid makes you a better person in the present. My boyfriend was a hugely fat kid (which you could never guess by looking at him now) and I think it has made him more compassionate toward people and have a better more hilarious personality than your typical thin attractive guy. I say we need more fat kids