Awkward Firsts: Losing Your Virginity Isn’t Always Fun
Some women get to have the dreamy, stereotypical first time. The love of your life surprises you with a romantic evening alone and it ends up in the bedroom. He tells you he loves you and all that jazz.
Well, you know what? Some of us would like to forget our first time, and “some of us” includes me. I’m not saying I regret it, but I sure as heck wish I’d put more thought into it and had better judgement.
I was young and stupid, and depressed. I was 16, a junior in high school, and had never been in love. My friends were hooking up and wondering why I’d never been able to have a boyfriend for longer than a week. I was never the “It” girl, I was more of the “one of the guys” girl. I’d never been told I was beautiful by any guy, I’d never been told I love you by anyone besides my parents.
So, my self-esteem really wasn’t all that great when my ex-boyfriend put the moves on me. During a play rehearsal. In a storage closet. And the cherry on top was the fact that after 2 minutes he just got dressed and left. TOTAL D-BAG!!!!!
No romance. No foreplay. No cuddling afterwards. Sooo not the ideal conditions to lose your virginity.
At times I regret the choice, but overall it’s not so bad. It’s a funny story to tell at parties, and it pretty much prepared me for any awkward sex situation that would ever happen again. Basically, it prepared me for the real world. Plus, now that I’m having great sex with a man I love, it makes me appreciate it more. My bad first time ended up helping me in the long run.
I know I’m not alone out here. Any other awkward/bad first time stories?