Can you guys believe that I’m on part 4 of this nonsense? I really wish that I wasn’t, but I am. Fortunately, I’ve come to terms with the fact that I still do not have a full time job, and I’m done beating myself up over it. Though it’s hard—not having a lot of money and feeling a bit behind everyone else—I’m fortunate to have a family that understands and helps support me. I feel grateful and thankful everyday for parents that haven’t kicked me out of the house yet for not working full time.
This is probably partially due to the fact that I do make a decent amount of money doing freelance work. On the other side of the coin, it’s still not enough to ever move out and be an independent person. It’s still not enough to become a “real adult.” If I were to move out right now, I would be back in my childhood bedroom before you could say, “Katie, pay your cellphone bill!”
I need more work. I need a “real” job.
First, I need to be honest here for a second and say that I haven’t exactly been “on the job hunt” for the past few weeks. I’ve been totally swamped with family and friends. I’ve realized that life can really get in the way, but I’ve also realized that just because life is messy does not mean that it’s an excuse to sit back. I need a full time job!
As we’ve learned from parts 1, 2, and 3 of my “On the Job Hunt” series, this is easier said than done. The applying, the waiting, the rejection—it’s all part of the process and it’s a true struggle. After much thought and pride swallowing, I’ve decided to make a little deal with myself. If I still cannot find a full time job by Halloween, then it’s time to start looking for something part time. Whether that means hitting up my local Starbucks for a job or begging my high school employers for my old job back, it’s time to face the music and start saving. It’s time to be proactive. It’s time to get my ass into gear, to be frank.
I am just so ready to move on with my life. I’m ready to close one chapter and start another with someone I’m very much in love with. In order for any of this to begin, it’s time to start buckling down and getting truly serious about this job hunt. You never want money to be a controlling factor of how you live your life, but that’s just the way it is. My boyfriend and I both have decided it’s time to change some things in our current lives so that we can prepare and plan for our future life together. A large part of these changes has to do with our current employment situations.
It’s so easy to put off looking for work because of vacations, family visits, and other projects that I wanted to get done before I know life will get busy. I kept thinking in the “now” when I really needed to start thinking long term. I need to start saving.
This goes back to the part time job thing. As much as I don’t want to do it, as much as I have stuck my nose up in the air about it—sometimes, there are things we just have to do. I can sit here and moan about how I have a college degree and that there is no way I would go back to my old high school job or pick up some other kind of part time work, but at the end of the day, money is money. I shouldn’t be picky. I’ve learned that I need to suck it up and do what I have to do now in order to get the future I want later.
I never thought that I would still be looking for full time work at twenty-four, but that’s life. That’s being a twenty-something. It’s confusing and unpredictable and about learning something new every single day. Sometimes we learn things a little harder than other things. It’s time for me to make some changes. It’s clear that what I have been doing up until now, as it pertains to finding a job, has not been working. So it’s time to make some changes. Change is good. Change is necessary. Sometimes we need to alter our current situations in order to get what we want, even if those alterations aren’t exactly something we like.