I am not even sure where to begin on this episode. The entire thing was a weird journey through what seemed to be an alternate universe where time didn’t exist. Chris Harrison wins though, because, I was completely shocked.
What confused me throughout this entire episode was the time frame. Brooks left, and seemingly the next day she gives Drew and Chris both roses. She chooses not to introduce them to her family, but instead, to go on final dates with these two men. Her date with Drew literally made me cringe, and I was so thankful she let him go immediately after the horseback riding.
Following her heartbreaking goodbye to Drew, she goes on a final date with Chris. On this date she starts to realize that he really loves her, and that is what she wants. This is what she has always wanted — someone who is vocal with her about their feelings, and someone who is able to tell her how they feel. Chris is able to do that with his words and his poems, so I can only imagine how wonderful it is for her to have this love and affection after a serious break up. Seriously, don’t we all need this next time we go through a break up?
Des says that it’s hard to know how to accept Chris’ love because she has never felt loved like that, and she doesn’t know how it feels. Apparently only four days after her break up with someone she claimed she was in love with, she recognizes it and now feels guilty for not loving him from the beginning.
She’s just never felt love before, so it’s hard for her to accept it. I mean, I get it.
But what bothers me is that he keeps saying things like… Take it day by day. And figuring it out. Again, the timeline was super confusing, but it seems to me like Brooks can’t have left more than one week ago. And she’s approaching this relationship with Chris in such a forceful yet hesitant way. She keeps saying things like it is what it is, and everything happens for a reason. It’s so passive.
Anyways, they have a sweet night in the hotel and he writes her another sweet poem. But it was only when Des interrupted Chris’ proposal, and told him that her feelings for Brooks really blinded her to what she truly wanted, that I felt a little sincerity. And I understand a little bit what she means. And I am happy for her and Brooks.
Honestly, I am sitting here writing this, and I have no idea how to feel. No season of The Bachelor or The Bachelorette has left me feeling so disoriented. Is that a weird thing to say? Maybe… But myself and the rest of the twittersphere and Facebook world were convinced that Brooks was coming back — and then he didn’t and I am processing. I can’t decide if she is really in love, or if she took what was a better choice because it fell into her lap. If Brooks had stayed, she almost certainly would have left with him, whether he proposed or not.
But during the final rose they seem pretty happy, and Chris writes another horrifyingly bad poem that Des finds beautiful. So, that’s good for them. Perhaps a success story!
However, the real news, and the only good thing that came out of this season… JUAN PABLO IS THE NEXT BACHELOR.
ABC, you have made me the happiest girl in the world.