This has just been one of those weeks, the kind where I just feel like I am so exhausted that I could pass out at any moment. I had this huge paper due for my honors class, and we have to do the budget for next year for Allocations committee, and my little sister is coming to visit and yadda yadda yadda… It doesn’t even matter, you all know how those weeks go.
Well, when a week is already stressful enough, you know the last thing anyone needs is boy drama complicating things even more. And after hanging out with my ex last week, he’s clearly been messing with my head. As much as a part of me would love to banish him completely out of my life, I don’t know how soon that will happen. (And to the ladies who commented last week, thanks so much for the support, it’s really nice to know I’m not the only one! If I ever figure anything out, I will let you know immediately!) Instead, I spend my time thinking about him, about me, about what I want, about how annoyed I am that this is what I’m thinking about.
So yeah, I needed a little release. A night to just forget about everything that was on my overflowing plate (of unappetizing things) and just have fun. And I did that last Saturday night. And I might have had a few too many drinks. When me and my girls came back to campus, my drunk self really had to pee. Conveniently enough, the train stop was right next to that older boy’s house (you know, the one who took forever to ask me out). Since he’d been texting me all night already, I just (drunk) dialed him to let me use his bathroom.
Long story short, he was really sweet and took care of me when I was drunk. He took me home to make sure that I got home safe, and put me to bed. He finally (!!) kissed me, and made sure my roommate made it home safely as well. He is a total sweetheart and it didn’t go unnoticed.
I think I really could like this kid, which is adorable and cute and exciting and just the thing to make me feel better. Or is it….
The thing is, I’ve already got enough drama happening right now. Between school, work, the ex, etc., I’m burnt out. There is already such drama trying to figure out what is going on with the boy, and we’re not even dating yet! I don’t know how much more I can take, or if starting something with him will make me happy or more stressed out.
Gah! Just thinking about it makes me frazzled.
Maybe I should just take a hint from this girl and give up boys for awhile. I think she’s seriously onto something.