[Everyone’s got a vice, a bad habit, something they know they need to change. Unfortunately, everyone also has a million excuses why they just can’t do it. Not anymore. Every month we will be following a different CollegeCandy writer as she takes on a personal challenge. And this month Meredith is giving up junk food. Yes, really. Her first week was good. Great, even. Then life got in the way. This week, she’s turning things around.]
I ate mozzarella sticks. And I’m not ashamed.
Not much has changed since my tough week last week. I’m still adjusting to the single life, which I love more and more every day. The nausea is the only thing that has really persisted, which means that I will unfortunately probably have to see a doctor just to make sure that nothing is medically wrong with me. Though I’m convinced it’s nothing more than the residual effects of Lady Gaga’s meat dress. Ew, I don’t even like thinking about it. Even if she was wearing a lean protein.
So finally on Tuesday, I felt up for a late night snack at the dining hall. The good news is the mozzarella sticks smelled like heaven. The bad news is they definitely did nothing for my post-breakup bouts of nausea. I could have sworn that they would have healing powers, that I’d take one bite and instantly feel happy and free and content. But alas, I woke up the next morning as sick as ever. I’m definitely not mad at myself for eating them, though. If everything this month had gone according to plan and I was eating like Jillian Michaels every day, then I probably would be pissed at myself for eating disgusting fried cheese mid-month. But, that’s not the case and if anything, I needed the calories.
Of course I knew that I can’t continue to barely eat because I feel like I’m going to puke and then chow down on junk food when I finally feel up to having some food. That seems to totally contradict what I set out to do this month. So on Wednesday I took a trip to the grocery store. The goal was to get some healthy food that I loved, but were bland enough to stomach. Now my dorm is fully stocked with rice cakes, wheat bread, celery, and Cheerios. It doesn’t sound like much, but when you’re living like I am right now, always having food around for when I can eat is very important.
It may sound like I’m not making progress, but I am. I’m eating much more than I ate last week and I believe that trend is going to continue. But, because this whole month is about challenging myself and meeting goals, I’m going to set specific goals that I want to meet by the next time I write about this, and I want you guys to hold me to them. (Well, as much as you can from wherever it is you’re reading this.)
So here goes: by next week, I want to be eating full meals complete with protein, whole grains, and vegetables. This means no more slip ups, no more mozzarella sticks, no more excuses. I wrote at the beginning of the month, “The idea is to do more than merely give up junk food, though; it’s to adopt a generally healthier lifestyle.” I really want to work on that this coming week.
Wish me luck!