[Everyone’s got a vice, a bad habit, something they know they need to change. Unfortunately, everyone also has a million excuses why they just can’t do it. Not anymore. Every month we will be following a different CollegeCandy writer as she takes on a personal challenge. Last month Michelle gave up stress eating. This month, Charlotte’s going to try to stop biting her nails. Can she do it!? Could you?]
Stuff I learned this week:
- Shit happens. Nails break, and
- Having nails is weird
First of all, yes, nails break. Sometimes they snag on something, or sometimes I’m chewing them BUT NOT BITING THEM, and I accidentally break an edge. And then I’m in a panic. WHERE IS MY NAIL FILE GODDAMNIT? However, this bit of advice, to always have a nail file on my person, has definitely helped. Now, instead of thinking “oh god, one nail gone,” I can file it up real nice and yeah, it won’t be quite as long, but it won’t be quite as short either. Breaking nails sucks though. One day my nails are all looking quite good, and then I break my “best” nail and they all look crappy again. But I am getting somewhere and I’m so proud. They’ve gotten to a point now where I don’t even want to bite them. Sure, I want to chew. But the idea of biting off that much nail is really weird. While I definitely haven’t completely kicked the habit, I’m definitely getting there, and that is something I never thought I’d be able to do.
Another thing I found out this week, the chili thing does work. I hadn’t tried it intentionally, but I made a curry last night and chopped a red chili. I absent-mindedly starting nibbling and what the heck is that in my mouth?! Chili. Yep. Genius. The nail biting stuff is working well (however, I am a little paranoid that whenever I prepare food you can taste it a little bit on everything I touch. I’m kinda immune to it now, but I think my mum’s salad a few days ago had a distinctively chemical aftertaste), but it’s definitely most repellent as soon as it’s applied. Then it’s so bad that it’s all I can taste for hours.
But having nails is weird. Scratching is much more painful than before, which is always a shock. But on the other side of the coin, they are so useful!! I can pick things off and pick things up with them. It’s awesome. I am so proud of the way they look too. Okay, too an untrained eye they look like gross little bitten down nails, but to me and people I know, they look amazing. A few days ago at dinner my Mum looked at my curiously and said “pass me your hand”, so I did. And then “pass me your other one.” Then she said, clearly impressed, “You’re started to get some sort of a nail there, aren’t you?”
The hardest thing at the moment is resisting nail polish. I love the stuff, I have probably over 30 different colours, but I know that right now I can’t wear it. Wearing nail varnish means I can’t see all my good work and it’s too easy to start by just biting the polish off the skin where it has spilled, and before I know it my (beautiful) nails are ruined. Working in food though means that even if I paint my nails I have to remove it before my next shift, so I’m sticking with clear for now. After the challenge is over, I might go another couple of weeks without polish to ensure I really have kicked the habit.
This has been an amazing experience and I don’t think I would have been able to do it without you all. I’m hoping to stick at it now and finally have the nails I’ve always wanted.
Check out the other One Month Challenges we’ve taken on. And if you’ve got a challenge you want to tackle (and be held accountable for), email us and we could feature you next month. Come on – it’s good for you!