It took me forever to figure out what I was going to write about this week because I feel like...
I try to be okay with unexpected change and the unknown, but it’s a constant battle I fight. I want to embrace this uncertainty, but my anxiety holds my arms behind my back and whispers in my ear, “Be afraid. Be very afraid.”
I am reflecting. My life doesn’t look like this—my life doesn’t look like what I thought it would. I stumbled upon a path that I never would have laid out for myself. And yes, I still struggle with this. Not because I’m unhappy, but because I feel like I have disappointed a past Me.
Sometimes things just happen. We get new jobs across the country. We start families. We gain friends. People come in and out of our lives without warning. We make rash decisions. We fall in love with people we never thought we would. Life throws us these dang curve balls, and it’s our job not to strike out.
Sometimes, I miss college so much that I yearn to write a paper or read over a syllabus. The reality of being a college grad is a heavy one to accept, but somehow, we handle it.
It couldn't be me! I only get rejection emails! Anyway, when I received this particular email, I was completely clueless to what it was regarding exactly, and that’s when I saw it: “Hello, Ms. Garrity. We would like you to come in for an interview."
Omit the part about being single with no one to kiss under mistletoe or at midnight on New Years or the fact that you have to buy presents for people with the money you get from Unemployment, and it’s true! Being an adult during the holidays is a blast.
Though it’s so much easier to be a Negative Nancy about life, being positive will help you out so much more though it may take a little more effort to get there. I’m sure you’ve heard it a million times, but a positive attitude goes a long way. It’s true!
If you're hyperventilating while reading this because you're a post-grad who feels overwhelmed by possibility or the pressures to get to a "real job", never fear! I'm here to help take your mind off of things for a while and let you in on the lives of some fictional characters in the same place you are (but more miserable and dramatic).
The other day, I was at my friend's sister's dinner party -- she was throwing her husband a surprise birthday party -- and I felt terribly immature. I mean, this girl had her LIFE together.
In high school, I kept a notebook full of quotes. Seriously. It's in my closet at my parents' house now, completely chock-full of the cheesiest quotes I could get my over-hormonal 16-year-old hands on. Need an example of one? Luckily, I live at home and have easy access to the notebook. Allow me to share some of the highlights...
Lately, I've been in a huge, post-grad rut. There are so many things I wanted to accomplish IMMEDIATELY upon graduating from college (i.e. being a successful writer, getting my own studio apartment, making lots of money), and of course...none of that has happened. So all I'm left to do is sit and wonder why none of it is progressing at the speed of light.
The student life is getting old. I want to be a real person with a real job! I want to get home from work and be done for the day, no homework! I want to have time on the weekends! But I think that sometimes I get carried away imagining my glamorous post-grad life. In reality, graduation can be a really humbling experience.