Amanda Bynes has been out of the limelight for a few years. But the former actress is back and gracing Paper magazine’s Break The Internet issue to talk about her return for acting, her sobriety and those tweets.
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1. She began smoking marijuana at 16.
In the interview, she details how her drug use started when she was 16 and smoked marijuana for the first time. “I started smoking marijuana when I was 16. Even though everyone thought I was the ‘good girl,’ I did smoke marijuana from that point on.” Bynes clarified, “I didn’t get addicted [then] and I wasn’t abusing it. And I wasn’t going out and partying or making a fool of myself…yet.”
2. She abused Adderall and did molly and ecstasy.
She admitted that her marijuana use led to harder drugs like molly and ecstasy. Bynes also abused prescription Adderall, which she credits for being the biggest factor in her public spiral.
“I definitely abused Adderall,” Bynes told Paper. She said that she got a prescription around the time of Hairspray because she was “reading an article in a magazine that [called adderall] ‘the new skinny pill’ and they were talking about how women were taking it to stay thin. I was like, ‘Well, I have to get my hands on that.'”
3. Bynes has tried cocaine three times.
“[I tried] cocaine three times but I never got high from cocaine. I never liked it. It was never my drug of choice,” Bynes told Paper.
4. Her Adderall abuse led to her quitting Hall Pass.
Bynes recalled how her Adderall abuse affected her behavior on the Hall Pass set and ultimately ended with her quitting the film.
“When I was doing Hall Pass, I remember being in the trailer and I used to chew the Adderall tablets because I thought they made me [more] high [that way],” she said. “I remember chewing on a bunch of them and literally being scatterbrained and not being able to focus on my lines or memorize them for that matter.”
Besides not remembering her lines, the Adderall and other drugs messed with the perception of her body. While filming Hall Pass she freaked out because she believed she looked bad.
Bynes says it was “the mixture of being so high that I couldn’t remember my lines and not liking my appearance” that made her quit the movie.
5. She quit acting after seeing herself in Easy A.
After Hall Pass she went to a screening of her new movie Easy A and just like Hall Pass “couldn’t stand my appearance in that movie and I didn’t like my performance.”
“I was absolutely convinced I needed to stop acting after seeing [Easy A].” She continued, “I was high on marijuana when I saw that but for some reason it really started to affect me. I don’t know if it was a drug-induced psychosis of what, but it affected my brain in a different way than it affects other people. It absolutely changed my perception of things.”
6. Bynes is embarrassed about her Twitter spiral and admits it ruined her career.
“I’m really ashamed and embarrassed with the things I said. I can’t turn back time but if I could, I would. And I’m so sorry to whoever I hurt and whoever I lied about because it truly eats away at me. It makes me feel so horrible and sick to my stomach and sad,” Bynes said. “Everything I worked myw hole life to achieve, I kind of ruined it all through Twitter.” She adds, “It’s definitely not Twitter’s fault – it’s my own fault.”
7. Bynes has been sober for four years.
“I’ve been sober for almost four years now,” Bynes told Paper. She credits her parents for “really helping me get back on track.” She also gave for someone who is also struggling with addiction.
“My advice to anyone who is struggling with substance abuse would be to be really careful because drugs can really take a hole of your life,” she said. “Everyone is different, obviously, but for me, the mixture of marijuana and whatever other drugs and sometimes drinking really messed up my brain. It really made me a completely different person. I actually am a nice person. I would never feel, say or do any of the things that I did and said the people I hurt on Twitter.”
She continued, “There are gateway drugs and thankfully I never did heroin or meth or anything like that but certain things that you think are harmless, they may actually affect you in a more harmful way. Be really, really careful because you could lose it all and ruin your entire life like I did.”
8. She discovered Channing Tatum from a Mountain Dew commercial.
“I totally fought for Channing [to get cast in] [She’s The Man] because he wasn’t famous yet. He’d just done a Mountain Dew commercial and I was like, ‘This guy’s a star – every girl will love him!’ But [the producers] were like, ‘He’s so much older than all of you!’ And I was like, ‘It doesn’t matter! Trust me!'”
9. Bynes went into depression after seeing herself in boy drag in She’s The Man.
“When [She’s The Man] came out and I saw it I went into a deep depression for 4-6 months because I didn’t like how I looked when I was a boy,” Bynes recalled. “I’ve never told anyone that.”
She continued that seeing herself as a boy was “a super strange and out-of-body experience. It just really put me into a funk.”
10. Bynes is at a student at Fashion Institute of Design and Merchandising.
Bynes had been enroled at the Fashion Institue of Design and Merchandising (FIDM) in downtown Los Angeles since 2014. She’ll be graduating before 2018 ends and receiving her Associate’s of Art degree in Merchandise Product Development. In January she will start her Bachelor’s degree.